I need help!

I’m a bit down in the dumps at the mo.

I have gloomy seasons, no particular reason springs to mind for this one. Post Christmas blues maybe? Lots of my fam are on holiday together for my nephew’s wedding – well jel. And I’ve put on a bit of poundage.  arrgghhhh

I’ve lost focus since I’ve had to go dairy free. It’s hard be low carb and dairy free at the same time. And the Christmas fayre didn’t help. It’s cold and damp and as usual when I’m feeling like this, all I want to do is eat. And it’s hard not to.

Today a reminder popped up on my phone saying,

“It’s your My Fitness Pal anniversary – how are you doing?”

I have a vague memory of putting that in, but I forgot all about it.

It is actually 7 years to the day, since I signed up for the MFP app. For the first few years I didn’t make much of a dent in my weight. It’s only a couple of years ago that it changed, but look at my first entry…

Do not adjust your set! Those numbers are real. I am more than 5 stone lighter than that number today. And though I can’t seem to push very far past that 5 stone wall, I DO NOT want to return to those numbers.

I know I blogged about this recently. So some of you may be thinking, “this again? ” You bet this again! Cos if not, it’ll be her on the left again. And I made a promise to myself – always talk about it. This will never be an embargoed subject again!

So hit me up with some inspiration. Pray for me, give me a chuck on the shoulder or a smack on the head. Anything you think might help me out of the doldrums? A x

You’re so sweet for asking…

I’ve had a few requests for an update, since I wrote my blogpost about giving up sugar, almost 5 months ago. So, here you go…

I went off radar when my sugar withdrawal started. Mainly because, as well as dealing with the eating issues, I also had to do something about my sedentary lifestyle. My health and well-being were suffering. I decided that apart from having to sit at a desk to work, anything that kept me in the chair too long HAD TO GO! That included sitting looking at a blank page – not getting any writing done.

amo-in-running-gearSo I ignored the blog for a while and joined a running club. I don’t do real running. I call it ‘enthusiastic walking’. The dark evenings don’t stop me, I’m kitted out with illuminous arm bands and a headlamp, (these do stop me, but only from running into a tree). Most of the time I want to die (of embarrassment and lack of oxygen, alternatively), but I am glad to be doing it and I feel the better for it.

I’ve been asked for ‘before and after’ photos too. I’m always nervous about them. Cos usually they sound the death knell of any efforts to lose weight. I do think I’m in the best frame of mind I’ve ever been though. In a blog post about dieting, which I wrote eons ago, I said the fatal words, ‘I think I have a handle on the eating thing now.’ That signalled a major falling off the wagon. I wonder if a sugar addict like me ever gets a real handle on it. Probably not, but I’m certainly winning at the moment.

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I wasn’t confident enough to take a ‘progress’ photo until after the first stone had gone.  Already my favourite comfortable top was starting to hang (a little) and I could see my face changing. I can’t even bring myself to post photos from before that. I don’t think I even ‘saw’ them at the time. I see them now and I can’t believe it. I’m not ashamed of them, just very sad that I waited so long to sort myself out.

I know lots of people don’t like to let the scales rule their progress, but I have to have that weekly accountability. The photos are great and the fact that now I’ve had to buy smaller clothes is fantastic, however the numbers still mean something to me. I try not to get hung up on them, but they do help.

amo-3-and-a-half-2So, if I lose 1lb this week, I’ll have lost 3 and a half stone. I’ve been using myfitnesspal since 2012 but never got anywhere near this number until I vamoosed processed food and sugar from my life. I can’t begin to tell you how different I feel, in every way. I have been praying for years about my weight. Asking God to help me and show me what I need to do. I really believe that this is the answer to those many years of prayer. I’m not saying I won’t ever make a blunder, or lose the plot. I just know that this is the way I can conquer my addiction.

And now it feels like time to get my bum back into the chair – but not for too long. I’m looking forward to writing again, and finding a balance between my writing life and my active life.

Thank you so much to those who’ve been with me on this journey. And thank you blog followers for sticking with me. Hopefully… normal service is resumed.

Whatever that is! 🙂 x