Messy Love


I was never a great one for preserving stuff for Sunday best. If I bought something new , I didn’t want to wait until Sunday to wear it; I wanted to wear it leaving the shop. I think my mother despaired of me a lot of the time cos she felt I’d no respect for my stuff; or myself. As a child I often had to be told to go back upstairs to clean my nails again and when I was a teen dressed in sloppy black clothes and equally sloppy make up, she just used to sigh and shake her head. I’d wear raggedy old jeans with my brand new top and she’d say, “would you not keep that top for something special?!” It never occurred to me…

I can do posh if I HAVE to!
I can do posh
if I HAVE to!

Good things had to be kept for good days. The ‘Sunday best’ concept comes from the same idea. In days when people spent their days up to their eyeballs in coal dust, farmland muck and terry towling nappies to wash, many people only had one set of ‘good’ clothes and they were for Sunday; when no one ‘worked’ and most folk went to church.

Another thing that used to drive my mam mad was when I wore ‘good’ clothes to do messy work. If I was forced to clean the car, help in the garden, tidy my room or even wash the dishes (none of these things were ever done willingly), her first comment was always, “would you not change out of those clothes first?!” So not only had I to do stuff I didn’t want to, but I had to do it wearing clothes I didn’t want to wear.
Can you see what a nightmare I was to live with….? (WAS? :D)

And weren’t we all taught not to spoil anything good to clean up a mess? If the washing machine floods all over the floor we don’t run for the new fluffy white towels that we bought last week. We get the old ones that we don’t mind parting with. We don’t get a brand new 100% cotton sheet from the hotpress and put it over the sofa while we paint the ceiling. We go rummaging til we find an old worn one with a hole in it that we were planning to throw out any way.

Photo by Vicky Miti. Used with permissionIt’s Good Friday and Christians around the world use this day to remember the sacrifice of Jesus Christ on the Cross of Calvary. There was no way around it, sin had to be atoned for. The Old Testament (OT) shows how God’s creation was spoiled and from that moment He was working out His plan to redeem mankind. The OT is long and complicated in many ways but really it’s the story of a journey. The people of God learning the pure and perfect requirements of  a Holy God and spending most of their time doing the opposite of what they were told to do. All the time God kept sending people to say, “No, not that way… THIS way.”

The message of the prophets was a continual call for repentance. But for the people of God, repenting in their own strength was a bit like using old, raggedy towels trying to clean up the mess. Every time it seemed clean again. There’d be another spillage and another clean up was needed.

Then God did something strange but beautiful. He took the best thing he had and laid it down to clean up the mess. Like a snow-white towel on a filthy wet flooded floor, Jesus took all the mess and dirt upon himself. He was buried in a tomb covered in the manky dross of the world – past, present and future. And as if that wasn’t fantastic enough… three days later he came back out of the tomb and he was snow-white again.

Give it some thought this weekend! I know the world doesn’t look like there’s anything ‘snow white’ at the moment. But I’d urge you to lift your eyes and look up. Look at the Cross. Look at Jesus and consider how God used the best that He had to clean up a mess.
He held nothing back because He loves you.

Did you hear that?

He loves you!

Happy Easter x

Joseph and my amazing nephew!


Last night I had another in a long list of #proudaunty moments. My nephew Bobby played the lead role in The Now and Then Production Company’s (N&T) Joseph and the Amazing Technicolour Dreamcoat. He was joined by a fantastic cast and crew in St. Mary’s Priory, Tallaght, Dublin.

I was on the same stage 14 years ago in a performance of The Song of Mark and a lot of the folk on stage last night, were there with me back in the day. So as well as a great night of entertainment, it was a bit of a reunion. None of us have changed a bit by the way… ahem *coughs 😉

The 11 brothers were a total hoot, the 4 narrators were fabulous – amazing voices, the orchestra, pit singers and cute-as-a-button children’s choir produced wonderful music and the dancing was just great!

But as well as the ‘big production’, N&T want to bring gospel stories to life. Last night was also about the message within the story of Joseph. Scorned and duped by his brothers, pursued by an unfaithful woman, punished unjustly and jailed. Then, when everything was restored and Joseph’s brothers were grovelling at his feet (as Joseph’s dreams had predicted years earlier…) this was his response.

Photograph by Philip McShane for N&T
Photograph by Philip McShane for N&T
“Don’t be afraid. Am I in the place of God? You intended to harm me, but God intended it for good to accomplish what is now being done, the saving of many lives.  So then, don’t be afraid. I will provide for you and your children.” And he reassured them and spoke kindly to them.
Genesis 50:19-21 NIV

I had a really busy day today. I spent a lot of it in the car which gives great time for thinking. And I thought about the message of Joseph – how horrible circumstances inflicted upon us by others can be used by God to bring about great things.

It’s not always easy to believe or put into practise so it’s great to be reminded that “for those who love God all things work to gether for good.” Romans 8:28 ESV

Photo by Philip McShane for N&T
Photo by Philip McShane for N&T

Huge congratulations to everyone involved. It’s great to see The Now and Then Production Company back on the stage. If you’re looking for more information you can check out their blog and their Facebook group.

For I know I shall find my own peace of mind, for I have been promised a land of my own.

Girls, repeat after me….


I must use anti-aging cream
I must use anti-aging cream
I must use…

I’m about to finish Year 1 of the decade where life begins. It turns out that Dolly Parton was right when she said in the classic film Steel Magnolias, “Time marches on and soon you realise that it’s marching right across your face”

I’ll be only booooshiful!

Thankfully I did start to make a vague effort to look after my skin about 5 years ago.
Someone bought me some posh moisturiser!
I know… swish! I got a bit snobby about it and decided not to use anything else if I could help it. This is achieved mainly by dropping hints to some of the family at Christmas and birthdays.
Most of the time it pays off.

I don’t have a problem with being 40. Well ok, I do have one… I don’t feel 40! I don’t think I look 40 either. But then what does 40 look like?

I suppose if you’re rich and famous and can hire someone to put your washing in the machine and someone else to take it out – the stresses and strains of life may not show themselves as they might on those of us who have to do those and a million other things ourselves. And people who have ‘staff’ usually have them in other areas of life. Not least in the makeup and hair dept.

I’d be happy if I could afford to hire someone to search my bed for the scrunchie each morning!

The anti-aging cream purchase is precarious, and not just when buying it for yourself. When buying it for others you have to be careful. Too young and they’re offended. To old and you get it back yourself for your birthday – and now you have it, with two reasons to offended!

Wrinkles are only the start of it. My face may or may not be showing the years but the rest of me is definitely feeling them. I’ve got a jippy hip, dodgy eyes and my knees are none too steady either! And let’s not even talk about the generousity of my proportions.

BUT… there is hope! 😀 I believe what Paul says in 1Corinthians 15 that when I get to Heaven, I’ll get a brand new body! I’m hoping I get to choose my own. Maybe there’ll be a showroom…

I'd prefer a chocolate one...
I’d prefer a chocolate one…

One way or another while we’re on this earth, if we don’t want to end up with the complexion of a digestive biscuit we really should try to look after our skin.

Obviously it’s up to you. But I’m nearly sure that in beauty school they’ll tell you….

The punishment for not using anti-aging cream
is usually… 100 lines!   😦

Heavenly Haiku – Faith, Hope and Love


Faith
Faith they say, a gift
Believe that you will receive
the present you want

Hope
Is it need or want?
Is there any difference?
I really hope so

Love
Unconditional
is HIS love for you and me
Why not love HIM back

The Half Circle of Life


Round and round it goes.
The whirligig of life.
No stopping it, impossible to catch
There it goes, hatch, match, dispatch.
Babby becomes mammy and she becomes granny
And around we go again.

It’s a wonderful thing.

The next generation consoles the loss of the last
The sights and sounds of new life ease the pain of absence, a salve.

But I’m stuck with this half circle
It keeps moving one way but refuses to come back around.
I feel the benefits and blessings of the salve of others
They ease the sting.

But the absence for me is doubled-up pain
and never more than on this day.
Each year Mother’s Day comes around
It holds my half circle in front of me
I look at it and smile through tears
For in it I see my 27

Dedicated to the memory of my mother, and to my 27 nieces and nephews.

It’s International Women’s Day so…


Happy International Women’s Day to you all… including the men.
Hey! I’m not sexist! 🙂

I’ll be honest, I’m always a bit confused on days like this!

I am woman!Here me roar
I am woman! Here me roar
Photo by Amy Rushton

We’re all supposed to be the same aren’t we? (Oh and by the way I totally disagree with that). But the message I hear ‘out there…’ is ‘we’re all the same’. Women should be paid the same and we shouldn’t suggest that women physically weaker, worse drivers (but less likely to have an accident); or less able to control their emotions or their bladders!

Women should be treated ABSOLUTELY  the same – so let’s make a day – JUST for them!

eh… huh?

I love that I’m a women and I love to spend time with other women. I think we’re fabulous, precious, creative, strong and different. I love my propensity to emotion, my maternal instinct, the little flutter I get when a nice man holds the door open for me.

I don’t get the DAY!

So come on folks… help me understand. Why is it so important? What am I missing?

The Hardest Thing I Ever Had to Do


Looking at the stuff in my ‘Drafts’ folder of the blog and I found this!
I thought I’d posted it ages ok! So I’ll do it now. My mam will be 8 years gone on March 16th 😦

This is another post based on one of the random titles I was given to write about – testing my ability to write ‘on demand’.
The title ‘The Hardest Thing I’ve ever had to do’ was suggested by Karen Mulreid

I have a Top 5 list of the most special times in my life. The hardest thing I ever had to do comes right in the middle of one of those times. It was, saying goodbye to my mother.

The 2/3 weeks previous to that were painful but wonderful. I came home from the UK as mam was sick and spent the next couple of weeks with my 7 siblings, going in and out of the hospital. We laughed and cried and ate together. Some of my fave things to do 🙂 Not all of us could see her at once so we’d go in and out in small groups while others waited outside.

At times it was awful! As she was on a ventilator, she couldn’t speak. So communication was an issue. But then we would end up in fits of laughter cos we’d try to work out what she was saying and when we got it wrong she’d be throwing her eyes to heaven. We started to call her Lassie at one stage.

She didn’t want us to bother the nurses. Even when there was something wrong or she was uncomfortable I’d offer to get someone and she’d stop me. I was not to trouble them.

I had the odd moment alone with her. It got to the stage she was deteriorating and was always heavily sedated. I sat by her bed alone and very quietly sang a tearful version of John Rutter’s setting of Numbers 6: 24-26 as she slept.
“The Lord bless you and keep you; the Lord make his face shine upon you and be gracious to you; the Lord turn his face toward you and give you peace.” I knew it was the beginning of my goodbye.

Betty Keeley – my mammy 🙂

On the day she died we gathered around her bed with my dad, and one by one I watched my siblings say goodbye. As crushing as it is even now to think about it, I feel privileged that we were together. I am thankful that we didn’t have to watch her suffer for years or deteriorate slowly needing more and more care. Not everyone gets to say goodbye like that… or at all. I know how totally blessed we are to have that. So we said goodbye and when she feel asleep for the last time we moved out to let her own siblings and then her grandchildren come in and say goodbye.

For the next two weeks we were all together. We brought her home and we spent time with family, friends and neighbours and we laughed and cried and laughed again. It really was an amazing time.

Losing my mammy – wow! so painful, even now, more than 7 years later! I thank God that the hardest thing I’ve ever had to do is surrounded by weeks of joy, laughter and family.
What a privilege!

Always the Mr. Miyagi, never the Karate Kid


I remember sitting with one of my big brothers, patiently showing him how to play the D chord on his guitar. I thought it was great he wanted to learn and I was happy to help.

I remember him playing his first few songs at a party and how chuffed I was to think that I’d got him that far. I was quite proud of our achievement

I remember the day he came and asked me to help him understand the theory of the chords he was playing. I was relieved I had grade 5 theory & could help.

I remember the day he asked to show him proper tabs as he’d been messing around with  them but knew he wasn’t doing them properly. I looked at him blankly.

And I remember the day he sat with his little sister, patiently showing me how to play the pentatonic scale of D on my guitar. I still haven’t got the hang on it…

I have my mosh moments :)
I have my mosh moments 🙂

I often wonder how that happened. My student went whizzing passed me down Clapton Lane before I’d even realised he was any good!

We’re both guitar teachers nowadays but he’s a real one. He teaches ‘technique’, whereas I teach chords. I got a bit frustrated about it a few years ago but I managed to get over myself and cop on 😀

BUT… it’s happened again!

 

 

One of my Twitter buddies asked in passing one day whether it might be a good idea to start a blog. Her son is autistic and has an amazing awareness of who he is and a great ability to communicate it. She thought it might help and encourage others is a similar situation.

I thought it was a great idea and went through some of the mechanics of it and shared some of my sage-like wisdom

Suffice to say that she and her son are gonna be rock stars! She went on to start a second blog about some health issues she’s been having and both blogs have been ‘spotted’ by mainstream media.

I’m 5 years at this. FIVE YEARS. And not a sniff! Not that I expected to get one actually. But that’s not the point!!!

#harrumph!

Actually I’m not ‘harrumphing’. Well… maybe just a little bit… 😉 but I am absolutely delighted that the blogs have done so well. Her son’s posts are fantastic and I reckon they have the potential to make a huge impact on the awareness and understanding of autism.

And as for mum…. well for a woman I’ve never met face to face (only on Twitter and Skype) I do actually love her to bits and admire her a great deal.

And I bet you will too.

Take a look at autisticandproud and atleastIhaveabrain Two fantastic blogs!

I’m happy to once again be Mr. Myiagi to The Karate Kid, but before you all wax off over to her blogs, don’t forget to wax back on over here will ya! 🙂

Twitter – the answer to writer’s block (or not…)


So I have half a dozen drafts and can’t finish any of them and I’m not sure where to go next.
Twitter is often able to find the solution to problems (and the cause of a lot more). And it has been successful in helping those in distress. Even though the mighty Ken Armstrong insists that “Twitter ain’t gonna find your cat...”

But I asked Twitter to send me some questions to help me get some writing done and all I can say is… they are… unbelievable

@WodkeHawkins If you were my earrings and have been missing a while, where would you be?
I reckon I would be wrapped in a tissue in the bottom of the inside pocket of the bag you used for your cousin’s wedding last year. Either that or you put them in the trash by mistake and they are now in a landfill. Actually you’re from Kansas…. could the Munchkins have them?

@Daracho what are you trying to write?
Anything.. even this will do! 🙂

@patricguntert what is your favourite word and why?
What a great question! It’s not an easy one to answer though! I have two and both of them are made up.
1. Incredibilised – it’s more than shocked and stunned. Far far beyond surprised but not quite to the point of horrified.
2 Smagloo – I made this one up myself. I use it when I can’t remember the word for something. Which happens a lot!

@cathalkeogh Is it true cannibals don’t eat clowns because they taste funny?
No! That is a myth .The reason they don’t eat them is cos they hate the taste of stage make up
2nd question: If all the world’s a stage, where does the audience sit?
On the parcel shelf in you car. Look carefully…. you’ll see them…

@flowersinapot If you were a vehicle, what sort of vehicle would you be?
I would wish to be a big fast car, convertible, red, expensive.
Am actually a very comfortable, old, bashed up estate. With plenty of room in the boot 🙂

@herodfel did you like the movie The Three Amigos
ABSOLUTELY …. My little buttercup has the sweetest smiiiiile
Awh what am I doing! You need to hear the original….  Here you go…

Thanks for all the questions guys… I feel totally oh… what’s the word,…… SMAGLOO! 🙂

There you go again… mistaking our difference of opinion for hatred!


I’ve said this before and it’s gotten me into a fair bit of trouble over the years.
Most of you will know how I feel on this subject, but some of you won’t have read my blog before and therefore might be shocked at what I’m about to say.

Here we go… I don’t like U2.

I don’t like their music and I have a bit of an issue with their lead singer!

I’ve never liked them. Never been into their stuff. I concede that there are one or two classic tracks that everyone in the world should love. But generally I find them very same-y and I’m just not into them. I’m not a big fan of Bono either. I just don’t believe the character. It’s like he’s an actor and he’s not ‘playing’ the role very well.

Most of you are probably horrified. and I’ll probably get a bit of stick for this. But that really is where I stand on U2. Minority opinion I know, but there you have it.

So what does it mean?

Well, very little really.
To you – probably that I’m a musical philistine, that I have no taste, that I should shut up 🙂

But I’ll tell you what it DOESN’T mean! It doesn’t mean I hate Bono, or the other lads in the band. It doesn’t mean I hate U2 fans. Some of my best friends are… yeah you got there before me.

Now you can head off to twitter and say what ever you like about me; but just remember… you’ll be the one doing the hating – NOT ME!

Oh and btw… you can apply this principle to anything else we might disagree on.