I need help!

I’m a bit down in the dumps at the mo.

I have gloomy seasons, no particular reason springs to mind for this one. Post Christmas blues maybe? Lots of my fam are on holiday together for my nephew’s wedding – well jel. And I’ve put on a bit of poundage.  arrgghhhh

I’ve lost focus since I’ve had to go dairy free. It’s hard be low carb and dairy free at the same time. And the Christmas fayre didn’t help. It’s cold and damp and as usual when I’m feeling like this, all I want to do is eat. And it’s hard not to.

Today a reminder popped up on my phone saying,

“It’s your My Fitness Pal anniversary – how are you doing?”

I have a vague memory of putting that in, but I forgot all about it.

It is actually 7 years to the day, since I signed up for the MFP app. For the first few years I didn’t make much of a dent in my weight. It’s only a couple of years ago that it changed, but look at my first entry…

Do not adjust your set! Those numbers are real. I am more than 5 stone lighter than that number today. And though I can’t seem to push very far past that 5 stone wall, I DO NOT want to return to those numbers.

I know I blogged about this recently. So some of you may be thinking, “this again? ” You bet this again! Cos if not, it’ll be her on the left again. And I made a promise to myself – always talk about it. This will never be an embargoed subject again!

So hit me up with some inspiration. Pray for me, give me a chuck on the shoulder or a smack on the head. Anything you think might help me out of the doldrums? A x

Starting again… again

So here comes the obligatory end of year pondering. We’ll probably all do it today. Some will be able to sum up their year in a tweet, or snappy Facebook post, but you know me, I like a good ramble. 🙂

In many ways, I’m a bit disappointed with 2018 or should I say, I’m disappointed with me in 2018. I hardly ran at all this year and I’m a little heavier than I was 12 months ago – instead of the intended loss of another couple of stone. The complication of having to go dairy free (a story for another time) has not helped, but I can’t blame it on that. I lost my focus and my vavoom for it all, and got lazy and careless.

So there you go, some super encouragement as we go in to 2019 – go forth my friends… move less and eat more…

OKAY THAT WAS A JOKE, in case you missed it.

My actual point is a cheery one. 😀

I take great encouragement in the fact that I am not hitting myself over the head with anything. I am not disgusted  with myself and so, heading towards a (chocolate) melt down. And I’m not hiding from it or ignoring it. I’m pretty chuffed that even though I have fallen off the wagon somewhat, I’m not throwing in the towel. I’m just starting again. I’m looking forward to getting my trainers on and clearing out the fridge so I can re stock it with the good stuff.

One of the biggest changes in my mindset over the last few years is my attitude to starting again. I used to hate the thought of it. The admission of failure, the dreaded stand on the scales and the despondent chant of ‘here we go again.’

Not this year though. This year you can bring it on – I’m ready for it, I WANT it. And the reason I’m so ready is the answer to this question…

What is the alternative?

The only option other than – starting again – is, heading back to 24 stone!

No thank you 🙂

So my dear friends, whether it be weight loss, smoking, writing, your professional career, your faith, your fitness or your finances. Even if 2018 was a complete blow out – just start again, again. We’ve all been given at least one new calendar, and probably a diary too. A blank page is so good for the soul.

And did you know, we are promised new mercies, not just every year, but every morning? Well, I’ll be grabbing mine every day, with gusto!

I thank God for all you lovely readers and I pray for each and every one of you. Thanks for your encouragement through another year. I look forward to sharing 2019 with you all.

God bless, and HAPPY NEW YEAR x

The steadfast love of the Lord never ceases; his mercies never come to an end; they are new every morning; great is your faithfulness.
Lamentations 3:22-23 (ESV)


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