10 Day You Challenge, Day 2 – 9 Loves


Day 2 of the ’10 Day You Challenge’ & I’m doing this on the iPhone because the Wi-Fi where I’m staying is a bit dodgy… 😉 so… it’ll be short & pics will have to wait til tomorrow!

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Today – 9 loves… 😉

1. Chocolate
Love is not a strong enough word. Yes it’s bad for me… Yes it’s just sweetened cocoa… I don’t care 😉

2. The West Wing
The box set is a treasured possession!
Don’t agree with everything (obvs) but well made, well written and well acted. Can’t say that about everything on TV these days.

3. Being the ‘baby’ of 8
Having a troop of older siblings is more than a bit brillo.

4. Social Media
Twitter, Facebook & even Pinterest lately. Love it & many folk I’ve met through it

5. Reading
Books books and more books… gimme gimme gimme 🙂

6. Writing
My new found love.
What did I ever do before I was writing?

7. My 27 nieces & nephews
I never had babies of my own, so these kids, and their kids – are my kids 😉
So proud of them all x

8. Richard Miles
A patient man who loves me more than I deserve 🙂 x

9. God
What can I say? God is very faithful and merciful to me and I wish my life did more justice to the salvation the death & resurrection of Jesus achieved for me.
Also love that I am loved… by Him!

Ephesians 3:18,19 And I pray that you, being rooted and established in love, may have power, together with all the saints, to grasp how wide and long and high and deep is the love of Christ, and to know this love that surpasses knowledge

Photo credit: The image above doesn’t seem to come from any central website but can be found on many that have done the challenge. Many use it but there does not seem to be any original source info available

Five Minute Friday – Worship


Five Minute Friday… five minutes of unedited, non stop writing on this week’s given theme ‘Worship’

Let us enter a time of worship…

Worship the Lord in spirit and in truth…

This is your spiritual act of worship…

Let us continue to worship God with our offering…

Sing songs of worship…

The word worship is a strange one. On the one hand you get this idea of sacred, reverend moments where everything and everyone else is put to aside and God is held above all others. Maybe not actually kneeling down; but certainly assuming a solemn position.

But on the other hand there is a picture of simple daily living. Making decisions and performing tasks in the light of love and mercy that have already been given. A willingness to surrender all power and possessions.

I reckon worship can be elaborate and extravagant. But I don’t think it has to be.
It can be simple and quiet and almost invisible to the passer-by.

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Whether you’re swinging from the rafters in praise, or sitting quietly – worship is only worship when it’s happening on the inside. I was once told that your relationship with God is only as authentic as the form it takes when no one but He can see you.

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Do you see what I see?


This fabulous image is of one of my favourite places to be.

Sally Gap 2 JI

The photo was taken by John Ivory and he has kindly given me permission to use it.

It is the road to Sally Gap in the Wicklow mountains. I can’t count the times I’ve driven up that road. I used to take it as part of the scenic route to the Bible College in Greystones, on my own in the early morning. I also used to drive up there with friends having the laughs, listening to loud music. I’ve taken it with American visitors, showing off my beautiful country. Also used to drive up there often with himself to relax, chat and pray in quiet.

I’ve taken loads of photographs of it too. But I’ve never been able to capture the view the way John has. When I saw the photo my first thought was… ‘THAT is what it looks like!’

I have a theory about photographs… which may land me in some hot water, but hear me out.

I think the reason we love our own photos is not because they reflect what we saw, it’s because when we look at them, we see our memory of the actual scene. Not the captured image, which is usually substandard. We remember how spectacular it was and the photo helps us to do that, but the photo itself doesn’t reflect the spectacularness (and yes, I am making up words to prove my point), to someone who wasn’t there. I reckon the reason we don’t love everyone else’s photos (and they don’t love ours…) is because we don’t see what they saw. We see a vague resemblance to what they saw. And that’s all they see in our pics.

Photographers have a way of capturing a true reflection of an image, which I think John has done brilliantly here with some of these other photographs of the same area. (Also used with his permission.)

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I was talking to Rich the other day about Heaven. What it might be like and what eternity will feel like etc. I said that no matter how hard I try, or what books I read or even what Bible verse I read, I cannot get my head around what Heaven will be like. It’s like I’m actually incapable of conjuring a good image in my head or a realistic concept of it.
I remembered the verse in 1st Corinthians that says,
“Eye has not seen, nor ear heard,
Nor have entered into the heart of man
The things which God has prepared for those who love Him.”

So it actually makes sense that I can’t conjour up the image.
Even if I did, it would be a poor reflection. But as the Apostle Paul says later on in 1st Corinthians,
“For now we see only a reflection as in a mirror; then we shall see face to face. 
Now I know in part; then I shall know fully…”

oh and If my photograph theory is right, then even John’s photo of those mountains is only a reflection (albeit a fabulous one) – you’ll have to take yourself up there to experience it first hand 🙂

13 years ago I didn’t marry my soul mate


On Monday myself and Sir Galahad were 13 years married.

Personally I think we’re lucky to have made it! I often envy people’s FB posts that say, “x amount of years ago I married my best friend, my soul mate!” I’m like… really? Well you’re lucky. Cos I did not marry my best friend and definitely didn’t marry my soul mate. In fact I hardly knew him, but I sure did (and do) love him.

Over the 13 years we have become best friends and I’m not really sure what a soul mate is, but he’s probably the nearest thing to I have to one – apart from Jesus. (Who I think probably wins the prize actually.)

We’ve had 13 years of hard slog. Grieving over lost loved ones, lost hopes of having children, fighting depression and they’re just the issues I can put out on the world-wide web. Email me for a full list if you’d like. (You won’t get one, but it would be good to know who are the nosey-parkers :D)

It’s been difficult and there have been times when I thought… “you know what? I can’t be bothered with this any more…” But thank God I came to my senses.

19th August 2000
19th August 2000

So… you may wonder are we celebrating at all and do we have anything to celebrate?

YOU BETTER BELIEVE IT.

We have made it to another year, another milestone. We know folk who struggle with marriage issues and don’t make it. Many are sad to break up, some are relieved – because it’s easier and just better not to be together.
And I get that – believe me, I get that.

But we are celebrating and thanking God that we have won the latest battle; even though there’s no doubt there are more to come. But for now we trust Him, and we stand together
in victory, weapons ready, armour on.
Cos it’s the only way we are going to make it!

amo and rich 2012
September 2012
somewhere nr Kenmare

Thank you God for another year.
Thank you God for 13 years.
Bring it on!

NB! No husbands were injured in the writing of this post, (Well mine wasn’t, in fact he approved it!)

Five Minute Friday – Small


It is a bit of a crazy time which is why it’s been a WHOLE WEEK since I’ve posted! I know I’m a disgrace 🙂 I haven’t been dossing tho… I’ve been hard at work writing and editing in prep for publishing my short story collection. If you haven’t heard about it you can pop over to my fiction blog Fictitious Amo for the news. In the mean time… here we go with this week’s Five Minute Friday… five minutes of unedited, non stop writing on this week’s given theme ‘Small’

Look at me!  I used to be small :)
Look at me! I used to be small 🙂

Small… one thing I’ve always wanted to be.
I must have been small at some stage but I don’t ever remember being small. When I look at photos of myself as a teen I don’t think I look THAT big, but I remember the constant nagging of the older generation for me to lose weight. And here I am at 41 still wrestling with the same rubbish. Now the voices are inside my head – always; I don’t need anyone to tell me these days.

Maybe it was/is rebellion, greed, laziness, apathy… I’m not sure but I am not and never will be… small.

I am grateful however to be loved just as I am by lots of people and especially God. That doesn’t mean there is not incentive to make an effort to change. But right here, right now, Ephsians 2 tells me that God’s love for me is high, and wide and deep and long.

Good thing with my proportions eh? 🙂

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Five Minute Friday – Lonely


Here we go with this week’s Five Minute Friday… Five minutes of unedited, non stop writing on this week’s given theme ‘Lonely’

You’ve heard it before haven’t you? The saying that you don’t have to be alone to be lonely.
We all know that we can be lonely in a crowded room. How many kids are lonely on the school playground? How many adults are lonely in a busy work environment?

And so it goes that not everyone is lonely when they are alone.

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I reckon that’s because ‘lonely’ is an internal thing.

I have often longed for peace and quiet – and I mean more than just the absence of noise, I mean inner peace and inner quiet. Sometimes loneliness is just too loud.

It might sound like a contradiction, but to me loneliness is a noise. It mocks and it teases and it tries to scare me and tries to steal my peace. Even though I know that God is always with me, sometimes I struggle to feel His presence and I allow the din to take over.

I don’t have any clever lines to finish off with.
No handy hint or tip to combat it.
Sometimes you just have to go through a lonely phase and battle on.

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Has anybody seen my faith…?


A friend of mine is looking for faith in Ireland – can you help her?

Today VOX Magazine editor Ruth Garvey-Williams is heading off on a world tour of Ireland to find faith. If you are interested in faith in Ireland, I recommend you follow #FindingFaithIE over the next few days.

You can follow VOX on Twitter and Facebook and keep an eye on their website. Ruth will be updating regularly and would love to hear from people on the journey. So do get in touch if you have any ideas and/or suggestions. She may well take a detour down your way!

Ruth Faith in Ireland

It’s a joy and a privilege to be part of the VOX team and Ruth has bucket-loads of enthusiasm for this project; but she can’t do it on her own.
So if you’ve seen any faith out there let her know won’t you!? 🙂

P.S. No Nissan Micras were harmed in the making of the graphic above
erm… wishful thinking there Ruth 🙂 x

Between a thing and a whatsit…


I’m about to read a book, that I’m hoping will change my life.  

Don’t worry, I haven’t gone mad 🙂 I’ve never been a fan of self-help books. A number of them have been recommended to me over the years, but I haven’t ever read anything that has influenced me more than the Bible. I’m not saying I rule out everyone else’s wisdom. I read ‘7 Habits of Highly Effective People’ by Stephen Covey and that, and his book ‘First Things First’ had a huge impact on my working life.
In general though, I’m not one for that genre.

The-In-Between_KD-171x260But my interest has been piqued by Jeff Goins new book ‘The In-Between’. I’m taking Jeff’s ‘Tribe Writers’ course and am really enjoying it. I’m encouraged to find that I’m already doing some of the things he recommends. I’m learning that I have a lot to… well… learn. There are plenty of good habits to get into and a few bad ones I need to break.

I can’t review a book I’ve yet to read but the concept of ‘the in-between’ is one I’m really interested in. I have struggled to enjoy, to savour, and to learn from ‘the in-between’ stages in life. At times I have resented them or at least felt frustrated by them. There have been so many things that I have hoped for and those hopes have not been realised. I’ve spent years searching for where I’m supposed to be, what I’m supposed to be, who I’m supposed to be.

“What should I be doing with my life?” has been my mantra for so long that I have neglected to look at what I AM doing and how valuable it might be. It’s hard not to look back and mourn the wasted time, and to be honest I still feel things have yet to fall into place. Me and my husband and both in our 40s and still waiting…

I am looking forward to reading the book as I’m hoping it will give me a different view on ‘the in-between’. It would be beyond liberating to feel different about it.

I’ll let you know how I get on.

Five Minute Friday – Broken


Our neighbour knocked at the door the other day to borrow our tin-can opener. She then arrived back at the door, slightly red-faced to say that as she gave it the first turn, the whole thing came apart in her hand.

tin opener
Our shiny new tin opener.
But I’m not so easily replaced!

She literally handed it back to me in about 8 pieces. Little tiny screws, the big handle, the twisty-turny bit (not the technical term I’m sure). She was very apologetic and promised to replace it and apologised again. But obvs I told her it was ok not to worry. Most likely the next time I’d picked it up it would have fallen apart and it was just a ‘time & place’ thing.

But I did ponder it for a while. Because I’ve often felt just one twist or turn away from breaking and no one would know, It’s not something that can be seen. Just like the tin opener!

I’ve felt it many times over the years… that feeling that I just can’t take any more pain or disappointment.
One more turn and I’ll fall apart into not 8 but 80 pieces, and I’ll never be put back again.

And though I’ve felt like that on occasion, almost broken – I’ve never quite fallen apart.

I am bruised,
God literally only knows how I am bruised!
But He has not allowed me to be broken… 🙂

My Guest Blogpost over on markfennell.ie


Hey folks

I’d love you to drop over to markfennell.ie to read my guest blogpost on online dating.

He has some great posts about relationships, money, intimacy, stress… all through the lens of faith.

Let me know what you think 🙂

auntyamo x